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My son & I celebrated Mother's Day on Monday - since we really couldn't be together on Sunday.  We watched Igor and ate dinner together on the couch cuddled up.  

We had a few friends over for movie night again on Tuesday... it was a lot of fun as always - despite the dinner portion starting really late.  I love bonding with new people and that weird feeling that we've known each other forever even if it's actually only been for one faire season. :~D

Yesterday was fairly unremarkable except that I took two naps - I guess I'm more exhausted than I'll admit to myself.  I also seem to be re-aligning myself again as a "helping hub" - as more friends I haven't heard from in ages have called me in the last two days wanting small favors.  This happens from time to time because I'm connected to the who /what they need. I drift in and out of this status based upon my actions - if I'm out of the loop/playing hermit - I receive no calls.  If I put a little effort into it, I'm suddenly in the middle of it all again.   I like feeling like I"m part of the fabric of the universe that spreads little good deeds and improves things in small ways for people I know (or don't know).  This makes me happy and I feel useful again.

And with that knowledge... a statement:  I am truly intrigued by Burning Man.  An old cast member (Squeek) mentioned burning man my first year on cast - and it sounded really cool, but I wasn't at a good place in my life at that time (newly divorced with a baby).  Now, seven years later - Burning Man is looking like something I need to do - if not this year - then soon.  It happens around my 35th birthday.  (End of August).  I spent a huge chunk of time reading last night about surviving the event and how to be a part of it... and my mind kept throwing up limitations: tickets are too expensive, how could I survive the desert, could I go alone and would I want too if Mick doesn't want to do it, could I take off work several days?  And then despite all the negative things my rational mind kept throwing up,  I would have that indescribable feeling that it's something I'm ~meant~ to do for some reason I don't understand yet.  I try not "swim upstream" very often - and I've learned if something presents itself that you feel a true NEED to be a part of, then you should not defy that instinct...  so it's in my thoughts and dreams and we'll see how it processes out.

We'll see how that develops in the next couple months... or for next year.  I have this built-in need to challenge myself from time to time... my own little trip to *where-ever* and back to figure out who I am at this moment and place in my life.  I am feeling this need to do *something* again... and it's building up slowly.  This is actually a very good thing - a need to self-actualize and grow again and become whole.  :~D

Now, back to my "real" life.. .::rolls eyes:::  the mundane one, (which isn't as mundane as so many people's - I'm very fortunate, but I just really feel the call of the wild right now... it's not easy having troll blood in my veins...lol!   I have to make sure my son gets to school on time. :~D

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moraiwe
May. 14th, 2009 02:30 pm (UTC)
I drift in and out of this status based upon my actions: Me too, we're one in the same cloth. I love you! :)

Burning Man: I'd like to go as well. I remember reading about it and seeing documentaries on TV for years and years. It's always looked so interesting. But I suffer from the same set backs (or are they?), taking off from the job, and ticket prices.

I'm looking forward to seeing you next Sunday & Monday.
tigerlady1974
May. 14th, 2009 03:08 pm (UTC)
*Huge Hug*
Ye gods, I'd love to do Burning Man with you! I'm seriously considering selling off material items to go do this... I'd have to take off a week from work, which I am uncertain they would let me do. Drive time would be approx. 26 1/2 hours one-way and fuel around $125 as calculated today. Add a $280 minimum ticket price... and I'm already looking at needing at least $600. Still... it might be just what I need. I get so much out of our little survival exercise at Character Camp in January each year ... I'm thinking the desert would be an unbelievable challenge.

See you soon! Call me sometime - even if it's after 9 pm!!!

-Manda
thebruce
May. 14th, 2009 03:19 pm (UTC)
tapestry01 goes to Burning Man quite often, and has regaled us with many tales of it...

You can meet him up here on Sacred Saturday :D Hint.

Love you guys!
rowangolightly
May. 14th, 2009 03:38 pm (UTC)
You beat me to it, my love! *grin*
tigerlady1974
May. 14th, 2009 09:58 pm (UTC)
Sacred Saturday???
Fill me in... :~D

*HUG*

-Manda
rowangolightly
May. 14th, 2009 10:52 pm (UTC)
Re: Sacred Saturday???
That's what we were quoted as to why SAPA folk would't likely come to OKRF the weekend after Scarby is done....Sacred Saturday.

This is the FIRST time ever that OKRF is still running after Scarby is done so that SAPA folk could come up and see what Bruce and I have been raving about all this time. I think it would be a great cross-over both ways.

And believe me, for you guys, we would find floor space in the house for you to stay! **wheedling grin**
tigerlady1974
May. 15th, 2009 03:03 am (UTC)
Re: Sacred Saturday???
Awwww... gotcha. I've never called it that, but I can see where the nickname comes from. It's kinda the un-written rule that everyone decompresses that first Saturday after faire is over.

Mick & I will look into it - it truly depends on work schedules and money, but would love to attempt it.

*HUG*

-Manda
rowangolightly
May. 15th, 2009 03:41 am (UTC)
Re: Sacred Saturday???
Let us know if there's anything we can do to help. We could certainly get anyone who wishes to come guest cast passes.

It would be absolutely awesome !

*HUGS*
jcrash2000
May. 14th, 2009 08:09 pm (UTC)
I am glad to hear that you had a Great MOTHER'S Day with your son.
I would also hope that your hubby made your day extra Happy.

later
firestarter333
May. 14th, 2009 09:42 pm (UTC)
It's good to see you in the happy place. I miss you guys so much.

*bear hugs*
smokin_man
May. 15th, 2009 01:06 am (UTC)
Ditto to you brother :)
xkookykrysx
May. 15th, 2009 07:09 am (UTC)
Love yah! I think of you all the time, even if I've not been in touch with hardly anyone lately.
tigerlady1974
May. 15th, 2009 01:30 pm (UTC)
We love you too!
I miss you so much. I wish I had more opportunities to do "girl nights" over coffee or movies like we did when you visited. :~)

*HUG*
-Manda
xkookykrysx
May. 24th, 2009 03:35 pm (UTC)
Re: We love you too!
well, come over here! ;) Actually, I'm thinking about doing a small girls night with the two or so gals I know here.
dariaclearwater
May. 15th, 2009 12:35 pm (UTC)
Umm...
What is Burning Man? Never heard of it...
tigerlady1974
May. 15th, 2009 01:35 pm (UTC)
Re: Umm...
http://www.burningman.com/whatisburningman/


It is a temporarily community of people (around 48,000!) that amass on public-owned lands to form a small city for a week in the desert in Nevada each year. It is centered around the arts and experimentation. It's difficult to describe... sort of like a modern-day Woodstock done properly with art as the main focus instead of music. You don't have to be an artist to attend - but everyone is expected to participate in some form or fashion.

Since it's in the desert - it's literally an exercise in survival as well. Cell phones don't work. You must bring your own water/shelter/food/gear. If you don't look prepared when you get there - the staff will turn you away.

This intrigues me greatly. It's looking like I will have to wait until next year, as Mick does want to attend - but can't do it this year. :~/

*HUG*

-Manda
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